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Saturday, May 12, 2012

What makes you feel PRESSURED?

Today is Saturday May 12th at 10:33 p.m. and I just finished watching some TV. Had to see the 76ers lose tonight, never a good night when that happens, specially with it being playoff time. Today after I got home from a long day of work, I was laying down on my bed for a couple minutes. I had turned on to sports center where Shaqulle O'Neil was talking about PRESSURE. A long story short he said, playing basketball or sports isn't pressure, but rather this is what he said, "MY DAD ALWAYS SAID REAL PRESSURE IS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE YOUR NEXT MEAL IS GOING TO COME FROM." While I know nothing about his past, it really made me think about PRESSURE.

Many things I feel pressure with, as do a lot of people for example: college, grades, family situations, relationships sometimes, friendships, jobs..there are plenty more. For a second, sit back in your chair if your reading, and I want you to think about what you feel pressured with, it seems easy, and then as you start to list them off, its almost as you start to realize, why would I feel so pressured with this stuff? Heck I was nervous going into work today and messing up big time because I had not been there in over a YEAR, but I ended up doing descent my 1st day back. Now I am not sitting here saying me or you have problems that are bigger than others or harder to deal with, what I am saying is maybe its something to sit back and think: what is REAL pressure?

Everyone has grown up differently, whether it is having a lot of money due to your parents income, having material items, barely having enough food to pack for lunch, having a unfortunate family situation, lacking of guidance etc etc. WE ALL ARE DIFFERENT, and because of this it shapes who we are. I have been privileged in my life in many ways in being able to go to college, have a great group of friends, have a vehicle that works BUT I have gone through a lot in my childhood, but this is not the place for me to discuss this. Its about society in general, its about US.

I currently am interning at a place where I am working with teenage adolescents that have been court ordered to live at a group home because of misconduct, alcohol and drug use, and much more. I have only been there a week and I am already gaining knowledge not just about these girls, but the real WORLD. I feel like sometimes were trapped in a world, where were protected from what really goes on in society. We barely see poverty, people not having a meal to eat at every night, abuse, rape, drug addiction, lets be real, we really don't see much of it, I'm sure some of you have though before. My point is this: What ever happened to the people who are to afraid to speak up, the people who are embarrassed to ask for help, the people who don't want handouts, people who are afraid of being judged. We all have been there! I like to think of myself as a selfless person, I hate not being able to always help people who are suffering whether its physically or mentally, or with their home life. So here is my point for this blog!

WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL PRESSURED. I am not saying what makes you feel pressured is a bad thing, but lets start turning this negative feeling into something positive. Let it fuel you, let it ignite that inner strength you have, no matter how deep it is. Instead of complaining about our troubles, lets embrace them to show the world, that we are all going to be OKAY. You feel tired? Fight for the people who don't have the strength to get up each and everyday. Feeling down in the dumps? Think of all the people or person that cares about you and who loves you. Feel like there is nothing wrong with you or your friends. Maybe you should broaden your horizons and get to know more people, or get closer with your friends. We all have secrets, and stories that will never be told. I met someone this past year at school, who told me that within two weeks of being at school that she used to cut themselves. My heart DROPPED, from that moment I knew then, whether its good or bad, I am going to do my best, to show that person, whether I would end up being close to them or not, that I would be there to LISTEN.

You can't always solve peoples problems, but one qualities that is important in life is being able to LISTEN. Sometimes that all people want. I have learned this from a young age, and am still continuing to understand this as I get older and pursue my dreams and goals in life.

MY FINAL POINT: What is PRESSURE?! Think about it, write it down, do something about it. I can't say things will get better tomorrow, but the sun WILL rise, and so WILL YOU! Friends, Family, and even I am willing to help every step of the way.

So I will ask you again, what pressures you? I hope this blog post has helped you in one way or another. Don't shove your life to the side, make an impact in yours as well as others, there are MANY PEOPLE WAITING TO BE HEARD. THAT'S RIGHT..WAITING TO BE HEARD.

Enjoy mothers day tomorrow, good night all

Grant H.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

For the Seniors( and all of my friends)

Today is Tuesday May 8th, and holy crap is it a droopy rainy day outside. On rainy days all I want to do is sleep and watch movies.

So lately a lot has been happening, well more like this past year. I can say I have had a lot of ups, and a bunch of unfortunate things happen to me this school year. I can't believe I am a SENIOR in college now, that is the first and last time you'll hear me say that, I feel old when I say that haha :). I've realized the older I get the harder it is to say goodbye to people. I have made a lot of memories with seniors this past year, some that I will never forget. When I went to graduation this past Saturday it was hard  to sit up in the stands and constantly think about how that is going to be me on the football field a year from now getting ready to graduate, heck I have no idea what exactly I would like to do with my life..TBD.

As I heard the seniors get their names called, I couldn't help but think. "Will I ever see them again?" "Will I ever get to talk to them again?"..it sounds stupid but its a thought that I believe should be questioned. Growing up through high school we move onto big and better things as we go into college. I have some friends from high school, but people move on start their lives somewhere else. I have a lot of friends up at college, whether they are big or small, someone I talk to for 5 secs a day or someone that I hangout with all the time, along with all of those inbetweeners. I could go on name all the fun times I had with all of these seniors and underclassman, but that is not the point of why I am writing this blog post..so here we GO.

Dear seniors,

There are some that I am going to really miss because some of you all I would see everyday and don't know what its going to be like next semester not seeing you every semester. There are some that I barely talked to, but when I did I loved to. There are some that I maybe used to talk to, but for some odd reason this past year didn't as much. The list goes on and on, but the important thing to know is that you all have made an impact in my life one way or another. I understand that life goes on, and that times moves on but seeing friends go is not the easiest thing to do. Of course, people will say that they will keep in touch or that they will visit, but I'm a realistic person, it will not be that easy. Heck, you all are going to be starting your lives somewhere else doing BIG things.

So I would like to say this, thanks for being a part of my life, and whether you are a senior, or someone my age, or someone that is an underclass that you all have been a part of my life one way or another and life would not be the same without you all. Through the good and bad as your journey continues always remember what got you this far. Family, friends, dedication, the will to not give up etc. Never forget the people who have got you through the hard times, the people when no one else seemed to be around they were always there.

So my point to this all? Yes, time is moving fast, and while sometimes I wish there could be a pause button its a fact of life that at some point we all have to move on. I am going to be in many of your seats next year, and I plan to live my life to the absolute fullest for my senior year at Shippensburg University.

My one friend likes to say the quote, "You know what they say about worrying?..DONT!

I can sit here writing this with a smile face knowing that while you all have touched a lot of people in your time here, your going to do even more as you move on, whether you continue on to grad school or the work force. Through the good and bad times, I can say I have made some of the greatest memories with all of you.

So do me a favor, if you ever need something, dont be afraid to ask, ever need a laugh you know my number, ever just want to talk, you have a phone probably and hands to operate it.

Bottom line, not am I only going to miss you all, but many people will. So keep on this journey, and always remember that there are people out there wanting you to succeed!

Time may be moving fast, but nothing else you can do about it except live your life to the fullest. I will still be around, and I HOPE ONE WAY OR ANOTHER YOU CAN TOO.

DONT BE UPSET THAT LIFE IS MOVING ON, BE HAPPY FOR ALL THE MEMORIES YOUVE CREATED AND THE MORE THAT ARE TO COME.

I've learned in my life that, sometimes you have to make an effort for things to work out. This is not a typical blog that I like to write about, kind of boring and I realize many people won't even get this far, but if you are that person, whether you just graduated or just another friend, close person, family member..anything..THANK YOU.

talk to you all soon