What does it mean to you?

Today was the 1st day of classes, and it is successfully over I must say. I only had 2 classes today, you know the whole get your syllabus day and talk about what your going to be doing the whole semester when you sure as heck know your not going to remember what the professor said will be going on a month from now.

Today I was in my theater class, and the professor wanted us to stand up and go around the room and tell everyone our name, major, our favorite food and either why were in the class or here at Ship. So I ended up sitting there in my seat trying to think of a not so corny response, I never ended up telling the class why I was in the class, because the only reason I am is because it is a gen ed requirement, instead I talked about my favorite food. I'm not going to talk about it right now because I don't want to write 8 paragraphs on my favorite food, ya'll might bet bored.

What REALLY made me think today was the question of, WHY AM I HERE??...Some might say, I am here to get an education, for athletics, I don't know, this place is close to home, I needed to get far away from home...etc. Maybe you fall in one or two of those categories. My point is this, I wanted to dig a little deeper. Now I might be getting the occasional, "here we go again, this guy is going to go sooo IN DEPTH"..your right! I could write on and on and on about why you are HERE today in SHIP or back home or where ever you may be, but that's not what I really want to talk about today.

A couple days ago I had a personal conversation with a friend who is currently a senior. Without going into full conversation, I would just like to say this girl Is one of the most honest, and upright person I have ever met. She will always give it to you how it is, and I've seen this girl grow a lot in the semester from when I knew her. Long story short, she is ready to move on with her life, graduate, and continue the journey. She is at a point in her life where, college has been great, but starting somewhere else with new people and pursuing her dreams and ambitions are beginning to settle in.To ALL OF THE SENIORS here at Ship, that I do personally know, even if it is a simple hello while walking to class, I will miss you all. I'm going to be in your shoes this time next year, and while I don't understand your emotions of not knowing what life will be like after college, and the thought of not talking to your friends you were close to in college, and just not enjoying this fun college life, well..im not going to sit here and say I understand, because I don't yet but in time I will. I don't want time to move fast tho, it will but I am not ready! Just remember everyone the memories you had here, and that your TIME is not over yet. WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU? What has being here meant to you?..think about it, one semester here. Live it up, easier said than done, but worrying about everything after you leave will solve NOTHING. Enjoy these moments you have left, and the people that care and do mean something to you, will still be there when your journey continues after college :) I know I will be in touch, can't get rid of me that EASY.

So "what does it mean to you"..being in college, or what ever you may be doing...or should I rephrase that and say, HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT. Stressed, worried, sad, concerned, frightened, joyous, happy, going crazy, need some loving, need a hug....etc. You going through any of those emotions? To say your not, or haven't in a while would be FOOLISH..right! I want to say this to everyone, whether your a freshman, sophomore, junior, senior, at home, working..who knows..when you wake up in the morning or feeling down or stressed or JUST MAYBE..need a little push..say one question to yourself. HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT? Today on a index card I wrote that and taped it to the top of my TV so when I am in my room and pass it I will see it. Maybe you need to give up a night of sleep, a night of going out, a night with friends, I don't know. Think to yourself, whether it be a job, an A on an exam, a relationship, friendship, hjdhkfhkfdhkfdkh..you get my rift, how bad do you want it?!..what ever it could possibly be.

I have learned a lot in my years and have a lot of growing to go, but one thing I can say is, before anything you have to have faith and belief in yourself, because someone else out there has it in you. If someone else has it for you, why shouldn't you. It all begins with that thing on the inside, that we all have yet don't express it enough, OUR HEART....you dig?

I'm going to end this blog and either go to the gym to workout, or drive someone up a wall, to be decided, but before you go to do some homework, or go to bed tonight, say to yourself..how bad do you want it. Heck, you could do what I did and Write it DOWN :)

Enjoy the rainy day!

Grant