First, I would like to say thank you to JT for reminding me to write a blog, I forgot that it has been almost two weeks since I have written one, so here I go!
As of right now it is Sunday at about 12:51 p.m., and i just got back from lunch. Today is looking like one of those days where I NEED to get a couple things accomplished, its more of just getting STARTED..like everyday right? :)
I titled today's blog as YOLO, and in case you didn't know you know now that it stands for You Only Live Once. I remember my first time I ever went skydiving, all I ever heard were people saying, "OMG WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT"..my response would always be along the lines of, "why not, you only live once"..as old as that saying goes it is very true. I can't wait to go skydiving again, I am hoping to do it again. Whether it is a lone, or with a friend I am going to try to go my senior year, go out with a bang.
So I am going to ask you, what does, "You only live once" mean to you? Stupid question???..maybe not. Think about it, how many times in your life have you ever not done something and someone respond with, "Come on, you only live once" It happens alot, believe it or not. Sometimes I wonder why I even stay up so late every single night, and then I wonder why I am so tired during the day :). There has been so many times where I could have went to bed at midnight on the weekdays but I always get distracted by people in the building I live in. Matter fact, I love having late night talks with people, that's when SH*T gets real. Being in college has opened my eyes A LOT. I used to be one to just sit around at night, now I feel like I am always wanting to be on the go and do SOMETHING.
The other day, and individual that lives in my building I had found out that his mother passed away. I couldn't help but think about my father. I am not one to open up to A LOT of people about it, because it is such a long story, and sometimes it is hard for people to understand. Sadly, I lost my father during winter break. I may not have had the greatest "father-son" relationship in the world like some people do, but it still hit me hard. The fact knowing that someday when I graduate from college, the one thing he told me all the time he wanted to see, and know he won't be able to see hits me hard. It is hard knowing the one person you are connected to in the world, you'll never be able to see again, at least in this world. When everything happened, I felt secluded from my friends and family, just because at times I try to deal with things on my own, that is how I have always grown up. I have learned to let others in over the past year and a half. It is true, and believe me there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of my father.
Over spring break, I went to go play basketball with a bunch of friends from high school. This time we decided to play in the actual high school gym like old times. My basketball coach from high school was actually in the gym, and we talked for a little bit. He expressed his condolences to my family and I. I began talking about everything with him, and at one point in the conversation, I expressed to him that I am doing better, it is something that will take time, but I know he is in a much better place with the rest of his family. At one point I said how hard it is knowing he won't be around for everything I do in my life, even when I hopefully walk down to get my diploma. He looked me directly in the eyes, and said that you can't think of it like that, in that he is right by your side every step of the way, whether I know it or not and looking over me.
I was never ready and nor is anyone when something like this happens. What makes me feel better is knowing he is in a safer place and I'm lucky to know he can look over me every step of the way for the rest of my life. So my message is this to everyone, if you are reading this, appreciate this life. I know you hear it enough, but YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE. There are going to be people in your life that you don't live very much, people that come in and out of your life, people that take you for granted, people that you give all your heart out to but in the end it isn't good enough. There are also going to be people who love being around, people that would do anything for you, people that smile just by the fact that you talk to them, people that would love to spend a couple mins with.
Of course, we all have been hurt once or twice in our life, by people we love or even have a lot of feelings for. DON'T take people for granted or wait for when the time is right. Heck I am 21 years old and I feel like I could still be 18 years old. I mean I guess it was due time that I grew out facial hair right? :p
My point is that, no matter how long this life may be, there is so much to do. Don't hold back, say how you feel, do what you want to do, love who or what you want to love. I can't take back the things I may have done or haven't done in the past. Neither can YOU. Today is March 25th at 1:19 p.m., and If you have gotten anything from this article I hope you remember that You Only Live Once. Heck, text someone randomly today just to say hi, tell you brother, sister, mother, father, anyone how much you love or appreciate to have them in your life. YOLO.
If you have made it this far in reading this, then thank you! I am about go start figuring out my schedule for next semester, oh NO.
Its never too late to start living. Have a great day everyone, its SUNDAY FUNDAY. remember...YOLO
Peace,
Grant H
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